My husband and I struggled with infertility for 11 years. We worked with specialists and tried fertility medications for 2 years. We eventually accepted and made peace with the fact we would be a family of 2. We did not actively try or prevent pregnancy 11 years later we were stuck at home for 10 days recovering from mild Covid. Next thing I knew, a month later I was late. I waited till the 6th week, Groundhog Day to be exact to take a test. Never in a million years did I expect a positive. It went positive immediately. I was so extatic and shocked beyond belief. I waited all day to tell my husband when he got home from work. I told him, he made me take 5 more tests because he was in such shock…. We waited to tell immediate family after my first OB appointment. There she was with her little heart beating away. Our family was in shock more than us. This was to be my mothers only biological grandchild. Tears were shed. Everyone having faith things would be fine because why would God have you wait this long for a problem. I am 40 and so we chose the NIPT test to be safe at 11 weeks, and we wanted to know gender. That ultrasound was fine, other then they said she measure about 3 days smaller then anticipated. At 12 weeks I got a call saying “It’s a girl!” But was sensitive to T18. I never heard of that. I did my research. I was devastated. Telling my husband that night was the hardest thing I ever did. The doctor referred us to a neonatal specialist. We only told a few immediate family because we wanted to know the severity. 4 days later we had sonogram confirm facial and heart deformities. He little hands were curling in. Her transnuchal space was very enlarged, further ultrasounds saw she was filling with fluid. The next day I was having a CVS. 2 weeks later I started to miscarry. She was delievered into Jesus’s arms April 22, 2022. It has been so hard on so many people because she was our unexpected miracle. As we grieve I am relieved to know she is healthy and complete and will be waiting on us when we get to heaven. I would not have traded her for the world.
Maggie Lynn
